I spent some time a couple of nights ago going back and reading all of my old posts. I started to notice a pattern in some of them, and I was not excited about it really. I noticed that I post more when I am upset, especially with Jake. I also noticed that more recently I have been doing some pretty serious guy-bashing. I am starting to worry that people are going to get the wrong idea about me!
I am strong willed and opinionated. I am mouthy. I fit just about every steteotype out there for a red head, (and a Leo, but I don’t buy into that sort of thing). I am also compassionate and happy and loving. I guess you just have to take the good with the bad, I guess. :)
So many things happen to me multiple times daily that are so funny and I tell the stories over to my mom and Jake and some friends, but I never blog about them. I think the writing of all of the things that aggravate the hell out of me works as a sort of catharsis. It’s funny how I can look back at old posts and the feelings that I had then while writing creep back up on me. There are some I hope I remember to never read again.
Lately I have blogged more about some of the strong opinions that I have, or have developed as I have gotten older. I know that they have rubbed some people the wrong way, and I have said time and time again that I was not posting them to piss anyone off. I honestly think that I am so terribly bored at work that sort of let things stew over in my mind until I feel like smoke is going to blow out my eyes, nose , and ears and it makes me feel better and helps me to cool off by writing about it.
I realize that I sound like a total heartless bitch so much of the time that it is starting to scare me! I am going to try to cheer this place up a little more and get back to either writing about happy and funny things and posting pictures of hot, half-naked cowboys and cute animals. There will still be times that I spill my guts and bitch endlessly, but I am going to do my best to make them few and far between.
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