Breakdown

This morning Jake and I made yet another trip to Home Depot. This time we had a couple of floor jacks to return, as well as some brass fittings that didn't help our leak. When we got to the counter I started rummaging through all of the receipts to find the right one. I bet I had 30 different receipts from the past 3 days alone! Granted, this time we were not giving them money, we were actually getting some of ours back.

I almost lost it.I walked around the store with Jake to make sure we didn't need anything else while we were there in a strange sort of daze. When we got back in the Jimmy he asked me what was wrong, "Can we do this?", I asked him. "Can we honestly do this and not run ourselves into the poor house? Can we do this and still pay for our bills here and at the apartment?" Of course he said yes, and of course I still have my doubts.

The excitement of owning this house has pretty much worn off and now I am more freaked out than anything else. No matter how amazing and how beautiful and ornate this home is, we are never going to be done working on it. Sure all the hardwood and the staircase is priceless, but do you know who is going to be the one keeping it clean? I am going to have a full time job just in general up keep around the house...and then you have to think that because it is so old there is going to be constant maintenance. And the yard work...whew! I know Jake will take care of the mowing but it will be up to me to plant flowers and give it curb appeal.

Now I think I am stressing myself out worse than what I was before! I know that things will be fine in the long run, I am just concerned about what is going to happen short-term. I guess that I have really high expectations for the place, and Jake and I too, and that is causing a lot of my stress.