Confusion

On Saturday Jake and I met his grandparents at their house, we were all going to head over the the Annual Washington Center Methodist Church Ice Cream Social. Jake had an uncle there visiting that I had never met. Jake's grandma introduced me as...Jake's friend!

EXCUSE ME!!!??? If 4 years, 2 houses, 2 apartments, 1 puppy, 3 birds, 1 kitten, a diamond ring and countless arguments and even more incredible memories makes me a friend...

Now I like Jake's grandma, seriously, but what the fuck lady!?!? As if I am not already having trouble battling the lack of faith that I have recently developed in my relationship, she had to go and say something like that.

So I can't help but wonder if the family really likes me...I know his cousins don't, but I don't like them either. They don't really matter though, you know, they aren't the important ones, it's the parents and grandparents that make all the difference. People ask constantly why if we have been together so long we don't just get married...I constantly wonder the same thing. Is he putting it off because of his family? Is that why he's convinced me that a destination wedding with none of our family and friends there would be best for us?

I know that I am just talking crazy. Between the stress of his new job and the deadline for the house being so soon, I can even convince myself that Peanut doesn't really like me. It's just that Jake and I have been through more shit than the average couple our age; We have been tested in nearly every way that a relationship can be tested. Through it all Jake has remained faithful and the one who stays optimistic about things. Shame on me for feeling that anyone, even his grandmother, can keep him from me. Shame on me for thinking, even for a second, that we are not going to make it though another flip and move!

As I have said many times before, and I am sure I will say many times to come...I HATE the female mind. Argh!!